Goodnight-s are badAnd shall AlWAYS be,But wishing you a wish,Is a wish.And,Shall AlWAYS be!
I thought about it and I'm still caught in it. Of how each goodnight whispered to me an echo that my heart acknowledged as a goodbye. Of all the goodbye's ever heard, none could be at par like that midnight goodnight as it flashed my screen. I sensed an ending that wasn't an end. A loss that happened twice. Of wishes that never came with a guarantee. What if, it was already the last of your share whilst you thought of the last one to be even more piercing. You swallow that pain of the imposed last and thank your stars for not making you wait. For what was never yours for the world but indeed your little world which collapsed right then with that goodnight. A night which apparently was never good, those moments that still ache and long for the night to be good again. And that whisper to be echoed yet again. That pain you're still ready to feel again,, to see that 'goodnight' flash again with an underneath goodbye! A goodbye!!Oh, forget it. Forget them. Forget me.
Its miserable me, for right now I feel miserable. I know how to come out of it, not actually come out of it but run away from it. But i do not want to run away, rather face it and find a way out. But right now its miserable me... Waking up in the morning, with thousand unsaid questions with sorrows pale and ochre with emotions hard to feel and there is a pain in the center. With crippled and tormented soul with sorrows hard to explain with pain demanding to be felt with millions of names in the mind and I am not able to utter a single one. With mind lost and wandering with eyes full of shattered dreams with many things left undone with beautiful words left unsaid and there I stand self-abandoned. With the pain of separation with the hope of soon revival with hands folded in prayer with eyes closed, wishing that wish and there I am-MISERABLE ME!
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