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RECLUSION

Presently feel as if I am becoming a Recluse. A recluse maybe or may not be for good, i don't know. Its like I am walking on a road unknown, onto a path to which is like never ending i guess. No direction No way.. feel astray...! Its like I am doing things against my will, or may be my sub conscious is constantly stopping me from doing things I am doing. I feel like I am in a complete maze with no exit door. filled up to the brim with negativity and still feel can adjust a bit more within myself! waaoww... after writing a paragraph full of shitty emotions I am realizing the fact that I wrote crap!! Serious crap!
So this is how I do introspection i guess. Writing makes me know myself much better! Now all I need is to know myself a bit more well. I probably need to find a solution to my ever wandering emotions. It starts from finding the reason behind feeling the way I am feeling right now?!!? WHY...?? The question still stands straight... why oh why?
#most probable reasons:-
* i trying to be positive way beyond it is needed to be!
* i am pretending to know myself more than i actually do!
* i am caring too much about things n people!
* i am just too impossible to understand!
* i have emotions difficult to interpret!
* i am choosing to be this way!
* i am not in spirit...
OK.. maybe i really need to brainstorm a bit!
i'll be back once i find a profound and satisfactory answer!!


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